Insil Jang

Today 05/31/11

I never thought I’d be back here ever again.
I never thought I’d think these thoughts ever again.
I didn’t even know it was possible for me to put on a mask yet again
& show the world that nothings wrong when the truth is..
everything is wrong. Simply everything.
Ive spent the past three years denying reality..
I’m not even sure if i’m happy with you anymore.. 
You say that you want to marry me but what if I’m not ready? 

Ive realized that i’ve changed, i don’t even know who i am anymore.
If I would have stayed one day longer I don’t know what i would do.
Now its time to regain whats lost, regain my dignity.
For the amount of sanity I have left.
I’m leaving. Finally.

She doesnt have to say anything.
Just based on what you have to say for yourself;
is enough to make you look bad.  

I never even liked you in the first place.

Cant you realize that things are over?
Shes going on a better path way now, 
and you being the bitch you are;
of course tries to bring her down. 

I suggest you stop. 
She has friends that actually care for her.
Its like your a parasite & 
Now its getting really annoying having to protect her from something like you.

Shes doing perfectly fine without you; matter of fact shes happy.
“Now that she doesn’t fall for pussy ass bitches like you” lol ;)

I do what all women do. I think. I blame myself. I marinate in my failure. I hate myself sometimes. Sometimes I cry. More often I stare at the ceiling and wonder what the Hell is wrong with me.

” 알았어, 모든게 다 내 잘못이야, 사람이나 그만 울려. “