I never thought I’d be back here ever again.
I never thought I’d think these thoughts ever again.
I didn’t even know it was possible for me to put on a mask yet again
& show the world that nothings wrong when the truth is..
everything is wrong. Simply everything.
Ive spent the past three years denying reality..
I’m not even sure if i’m happy with you anymore..
You say that you want to marry me but what if I’m not ready?
Ive realized that i’ve changed, i don’t even know who i am anymore.
If I would have stayed one day longer I don’t know what i would do.
Now its time to regain whats lost, regain my dignity.
For the amount of sanity I have left.
I’m leaving. Finally.